090007 #human Here's the other, possibly the only problem: I'm gay. Or at least enough of me is that I--yeah, you know the rest. I'm gay. 040004 #human I just smiled look-away-shyly at an old crone. She was making her way to a table. It is the table by the window. She is beautiful (of course) 000094 #human not because i am blind but because i stop myself right before the point--just as i used to do as mike so rudely pointed out, when playing the keyboard. i would start a song, get going, and then quit because i left behind the memorized part and didn't want to sound stupid. tae says the first thing is not to ignore even if it's just a whiff of a gut feeling. even if you think you just thought it up. go with the urge to look over your shoulder or do whatever. go with the urge.