102913 #snail #featherwoman And I couldn't get to sleep because of the movie energy pulling me somewhere, somewhere away off left, over the dark wet grass of the commons, out past and above the airport, into the glowing dark, past all the exciting places you told the girls you'd flown or floated to in all your exciting jobs, and I wondered, and I had to actually do that sideways ladder climb half touching and mostly not touching your legs to get to the dresser to get my phone to make a note about it, I wondered whether or not that real big life and death big music charging ahead movie love can ever be possible again.