000002 #human I feel it in my jaw, my knuckles, the back of my throat. It's almost like the onset of a shroom trip, only I'm not tripping, you know? Crazy! This must be one of the reasons people do this sort of thing! It's like drugs only a little less sensational. It's cheaper, legal, better for you in many ways, and more social. Hmm.... Also it requires a little more effort. You have to put a little more of your body and heart into it to get the results you want. And the results are a bit more unpredictable. Which is a plus, of course, it means it doesn't wear out so much. Also there is more at stake, particularly for the ego. I'm afraid of looking foolish. I never really worried about impressing the drugs I took. Although there were times, high, when I was acutely aware that I was hiding from people around me. I was being invisible. In this, on the other hand, you have to do a visibility spell. 000096 #human it was (i thought) time to leave, and then she thanks me for letting her in, and i bust out crying. saying "it wants visitors." she says, "make yourself the primary visitor."