000096 #squirrel if right now you had to try and relate the story thats going on between us to someone how on earth would you tell them. i would start by going to the computer at night all by myself, and start spewing. thats the only way i could even begin to approach it tihtnk unless perhaps i was in a therapists office then after i did that, i would have a clearerer idead of where i actually stand in my thoughts, or a clearer idead of what the story even is. cuz right now, i'm a character in the story and its hard to tell the story that way.