040708 #treefrog I'm just really not in the right profession. I just really should not have done this. This really fucking blows. I don't want to do this. I really, really, really have no interest in insinuating myself into these situations, and trying to, I don't know, prove something or whatever the hell it is you're supposed to do. I have no interest in "relating to them;" I have no interest in "reaching them;" well, whatever. That's not completely true. But I sure am afraid I'm not going to be able to. I'm sick, I'm tired, I'm pale, I'm shivering, full of fear, and about as unvigorous and uncool as I've ever been. This fucking sucks.