101413 #martian - the way people talk in the waiting room at the clinic often seems like an attempt to display how good they are at parenting, but instead of sneering contemptuously at them (us), I can also choose to see the benefit of that--it's good practice, it's a moment of heightened awareness. - Libby was super quiet while I was in the room with her and Peggy, but I wouldn't be surprised if she was talking away now that I'm out here. - I'm a little anxious right now and my butt feels a little irritated and my face is a little flushed but I'm wearing a cool shirt and my black duster which is very green again, and I'm kind of afraid and kind of hoping that the resonant jittery ache means I'm about to give birth to another strange and beautiful scary alien.