102812 #human trickortreating this afternoon with the mcdonalds. Nice. Harold poked me with a plastic fake-bloody knife and said, "Why are you so quiet?" The girls laughed and got tired. Celi had the crap scared out of her by some ghouls at the obligatory scary house on the block. But she did all right. They all did. They're tough. Probably tougher than i ever was. Cici's pizza buffet with holly & shane, after wondering if angie was uneasy having them in her house. I kind of hate shane's sympathy. The way he said call us if you ever need anything made me feel pretty low, in that hypercozy smothered-by-a-blanket weird way. I'm now more unfortunate than the token family deadbeats. But who knows if they even are that, anymore. I could just use a little success, that's all. Well? Go get some! [Insert list of excuses followed by rational rebuttals here. Get tired of that. Try to think of or do something else.]