092511 #human I then tried to think about whether or not I could do it, be truly submissive in a deep, genuine, everyday-life sort of way, but the fact is I wasn't thinking about it. Instead I was marvelling at the fact that I knew beyond a shadow of a doubt that I would do it, no matter what. Pretending to think about it was a little kneejerk game played to buy myself a little time before the awesome hugeness of space enveloped my free-falling tiny self. As I woke up.