000096 #human So I guess what I'm saying is, the only reason to work hard at any job is that it either pays the rent, or it pays the Rent. And I am not yet ready to give up the writing as doing either or both of those in some way. In the meantime I have often distracted and consoled myself with the specious rewards of strokes, attention, masturbation, etcetera--not that those are all evil, but they are not really enough.