062913 #martian - Now I know what I am looking for. - Not a man, not a woman, but a woman who has sex with men. I mean, I guess I've known that for a long time. And I thought I had found it. Now I have to start all over with the trust thing--but I'm wiser now, and more deliberate now, and have more and better strategies now. I've been through the fire. Now it's phoenix time. - I want a woman who still cares about me while she's doing it. Okay, maybe not while she's DOING it, but after all is said and done. I want her to bring that pain home to me. The thing with Ann was hyperbolic. It was unsustainable. Like abuse always is. Hot, but unsistainable. I want to find my parabola now.