000096 #squirrel i mean directly in relatinon to things we talke about and do , i ask myself things, i mean i look at parts of myself with a diffrent eye than i ever would otherwisde, thigs i am so used to taking for granted, and things that it seems my family and my friends just allow me to take no expect me to take for granted, and theser things i find myself looking at, difrfrently i dont even know exactly how, just diffrently, and i can actually hjoold them up toi the light and say, do i want this, is this really me, what the hell is really going on here. and apart form that, we just have a lot of fun.