000096 #squirrel its okayt to be on the same level with me it doenst mean your stepping down i eamn shit matthew you dont have to be the golden boy with me. i hiope not which is both what i think has been exp[ceted of you since you were a kind and what women ahve expected of you as a nd adult. hm. that makes it sound like itys not my fault its not your fault you know i dont' always believe that how can yo not believe that whats to belive ill tell you it comes with the territoty. what territory i was getting to that--the teritory of golden boy. includes alwasys being responsible. i bet it also includes only going out with the most desireable pristine nice girls. or so it eseems yes and i finds them incredibly fucking boring. so why do it vbecause it is immensely less scary.