000096 #squirrel i dont see your bullshit acts i dont think that your always acting but see my dear thats a nother part of it coming from you maybe you want to believe that your acting cuz its too cscary to be real you want to be able to pull back inside the shella nd that was just a trik a slite of hand nothing riskt nothing lost nothing gaind. maybe i know sometimes i'm acting but never really on purpose exactly i dont knwo why this is all so slippery like i forget it as soon as i understand it i mean the very same instant i mean i dont know for some reaosn this is a very sluppery place for me to be and that sounds like its prbably a very core issue it is its connected to the root of your of my what go on say it sthe root of your beee ing. oh. i thought you were aboyut to say the root of my problem which is what i would have said but you are much harder on yourself than i am.