000096 #squirrel in this learning how to live my lkife thing it seems sometimes like im barreling full speed ahead and then sometimes i feel like sitting dfown at the typewriter and typing over and over your fool ing im fooling myself im fooling myself etcetera. only you know wyour own truth so why i thought i thought i did but i was mistaken its not up to me to know your truth its uip to you and i guess all i can do is cut myself some slack and give myself the time and path i need to find it. yeah pretty much and you will