010414 #warmglowbox #human I can't believe how wretched I feel. Obsessive ticks keep resurfacing, like why didn't the metadata on the jonquils order itself corredctly? The modification times are all backwards. And I'm coughing in the back of my throat, bleary, drained, having jerked off in some kind of monosexual gluttony to a bunch of trashy youtube videos. For a while I thought the box was my plaything. Where is all my rebirth and confidence now? I feel like shit. Self doubt is rampaging like a gory bear.