112413 #human I told Megan, "Let Cecilia fuck up." I wanted her to use the strategy of not telling everyone what to do. But you know sometimes it's hard for her to embrace that. She stood there, leaning towards me in that ready-to-fight pose she has, arms stiffly out from her sides a little bit. The skin below her left eye quivered a little. She kept repeating it. "Okay. I'll let her *fuck up.* I'll let her *fuck up.*" I felt like she was trying to scare me or teach me a lesson. And it almost worked. But I "gave up," and kept calm, and just explained again why I didn't want her to have the burden of telling Cecilia what to do. Maybe at some level she was experimenting with the energy of saying fuck and being angry.