010001 #eel I get afraid that if I assert my independence at all, I will lose that. I will get left out of the crazy games. I wont get to trip with you, and I dont mean just the drugs. Is this making any sense? It is hard for me to say all this because I feel like Im being cowardly, that Im being boring, that Im giving in to some kind of mundane programming. But I guess I have to take that risk, because I have to take care of myself, take care of the metaphorical and actual dogs and so forth, and I hope after all this youll still want to play and have adventures with me.