#fox Remember the multiplicity of things. The barbed wire fence can be a nightmare, and it can be a rustic dream of a perfect childhood afternoon. 120912 #human #dolphin Hey, that's what they say about this writing thing. This is why it's scary. You have to face stuff. That's the raw power of it, isn't it? 081413 #worm Dekna is wearing tight jeans and, unfortunately, a shirt. Her guitar is smashed on the cot beside her. A forlorn E-string waves up into the songless air. 120913 #deeppool Maybe the problem with being swirled around in a powerful vortex is, it's more terrifying if you insist on knowing which way is up *and* looking that way. 112912 #human #crow Or is it possible that it's not possible because I *don't actually want it?* And that's a key question in a *lot* of my life lately, isn't it? 081613 #worm And when he is a bent daisy on the god damn floor, you open your mouth so slowly he can hear your lipstick unsticking, and the sound reprograms his brain. 081413 #worm Krim sits in a rocking chair by the fake seventies fire. Spill it, bitch, she says. Me's liver turns to chicken soup. And stop taking yourself so seriously. 081013 #dog *Somewhere near water. A boat slides by obscenely, lightening the darkness with its many nasty portholes, eeking luminosity into the shipwreckt night.* 120913 #eel It seemed as though I had had a car of some sort at some time in the past, but it pretty much went without saying that it was washed away or lost by now. 104145 012314 #feandra #stargazer He was into some pretty high-tech meditation. She showed him a real candle one day and his mind imploded like a type Ia supernova. 010002 #squirrel I have lost 175 pounds in the last two months. Of course, Margaret was 160 of that, yes, her and I are a thing of the past now. I have quit smoking 090913 #roach go over there and talk to him. go over by him. go in through the door go back out into the hushed dining room. go back to Esriel's go by. go tonight, 081013 #dog I know we haven't juggled lately, but there's a certain grandeur to a fat-ass, hot, beige, 17-inch CROOKES TUBE plopped on top of the table in front of you. 000097 #human I was a thing. A mabob. I had no desittery to my name. So I said to myself one blasted eve, Who needs a master-flippin job like that anyway? No answer. 010314 #mistress Can I come tonight? No. Why not? You didn't earn it. Try again tomorrow. She leaves with the key nestled between her killingly motherly breasts. 000002 #human #meerkat Old suitcase with the elastic compartment inside. Your fresh underthings in there. Old typewriter in a square, black box. The smell of oil. 081613 #trout a 293-cm-long rainbow scarf with "despair" written on it. The unusual sensation you feel in your shoulders is a symbol of a rigidly defined goal! 081313 #rollercoaster squiggles and fidgets waiting in line hot taffy sun hot wood & oil everybody's perfume and shorts lumps curves and warts ratchet & fear 081413 #worm You know...Ltiky said you were really awesome, but it seems like all you can do is blow hot air out your pursed lips and come up with a bunch of dignity crap. 091313 #trout The crappy green car motors up through highways of the night country, where everything is trees and mournful howling. The kidnappers talk, and I listen. 081413 #worm The problem, Him says after exhaling philosophically, is that we are trying to make a map of places we've never actually visited, let alone lived in. 051413 finch Dimpling rain mixing with someone's barbecue fire remains, kids in bed, this little stack of atmosphere smells perfect right now. 081413 #worm Well I'm going to go see if Ella's home, then. Ltiky flees. It's no use trying to interrupt a ghost with a strap-on who is about to fuck your wife for you. 081513 #worm Is that the problem? Him asks. He picks up one of the ragged-edged pieces of notebook paper and studies it. I thought the problem was that our poetry sucks. 081413 #worm She lies back on the dingy bed. He approaches reverently, and sinks in. Fucking her is like unfolding into an all-mothering mud-bath. Her warmth enters him. 214111 073196 #human #fox The best thing you can do is to really devote yourself to the ones you do write about, and at least respect the ones you do not. 214749 000012 #treefrog walking up and down, talking with my first junior class (scotty, lashae, marquis, eric, deontrae, etc) about goldberg and lamott and all that stuff 081413 #copperhead Okay, occasionally we do make coffee. Like, only about once a day. But that's still mostly water. Well, okay, what beverage isn't mostly water? 081613 #worm We sit. You want to go somewhere with me? he asks. Click. Click. Click. Pause to turn, more slowly than a dreamboat, and click. Click. Click. Stop. Over? 081413 #copperhead Realistically, I'm sure there'll come a day when I knock back a drink or two. But I continue to be amazed by how not imminent that day has become. 120913 #human #fox Another stranger asked me what I "do now," and again I faltered. Substitute teacher. That just doesn't come close to saying it all. And yet, let's face it: *IT DOES.* 112013 #roomfullof1000voices everybody has a thousand little problems bug bites itchy throat puking can't sleep hurt feelings i can't fix them all words seem pointless 090813 #trout You know, he went on, as if he were discovering and pontificating all at the same time, you can never really, really, truly fuck someone if you can't really be yourself. 112613 #gull #maelstrom I saw a kittiwake in a sudden squall. I felt no little amount of sympathy as he ducked and swirled--gyred and gimballed, yes--trying to regain his equilibrium. 081313 #copperhead And here's the thing, my friends: you will never be ready to choose that instant. Something else propels you over; perfect readiness is never the activation energy. 081813 #treefrog #meerkat #crow Lose the careful nonchalance. It's fake, easy, utterly ineffective. Try instead to "describe the most important thing in the world." 090505 #eel Her cute voice turned hard as she said "Bad, bad, bad..." over and over again, while shooting people with her red-light badness ray from her eyes. Things got worse and worse. 111813 #ruins Her house was usually so empty. She resoundingly, ringingly had not noticed, until it wasn't empty. How Mary ended up here today was like a tiny, pinpoint miracle in itself. 081413 #worm I don't even know which one of these bitches gave it to him, Omsatigo tells you. Hell, it might have been all three of them. You never fucking know with broads like these. 081013 #dog *And he looks up, up at the ceiling, up at the sky and he sees stars arranged in the shapes of crosses, and women, and other multifarious beasts too sinister to mention.* 000096 #squirrel whether you wnat to look at this way or not, i see us as being the lights that one another reads by i like that i cant really deny it even if i would want to. 011014 #robot I am one of thousands of hyper-intelligent bots who live in the cuboid. *But why are we here?* We are programmed to *do nothing.* What could possibly explain our presence? 010314 #jonquil Mary scooted over closer, but the angle still wasn't right. She put her hand on Gwen's shoulder, which melted a little, and Gwen eased back toward the warmth of Mary. 010514 #bushmill Mel and Pete are acting like they've known each other for years. Something about it seems wrong or fake, but then again I'm probably just jealous and my head hurts. 010314 #jonquil She went out the back door, grabbing a faded red hoodie off a hook in the mud room. She pushed the door shut behind her; it didn't latch unless you pushed it hard. 010514 #gull #ghost There's a ghost in the geektool. The script is supposed to echo number of files in the folder plus one for the folder iteself. But it's showing plus two. What the--!? 081413 #worm Eventually, he succumbs, and takes in his mouth the smoke she offers. She lights it for him, her hands cupped around the flame like a butterfly around its own ethereal heart. 081413 #worm There are too many people here. She won't do anything to you here. There would be too many witnesses. She doesn't have that kind of guts. She'd be too embarrassed, herself. 051111 #martian 1. Benjamin passed me a note. 2. I tend to use impressive words around him. 3. My girl isn't afraid to switch to a new song, fuck it if the album's not over. 121013 #human #robot #fox #thirteenstones #dragon You can stop struggling to climb onto the top of the greens as soon as you're offered a chance to be even the lowliest of browns. 081413 #worm The snoke is a dentist's office, loading dock, tiger lily patch behind the backyard. It's the echo in the stairwell of an empty dance hall, faded red thin carpeting and all. 081313 #copperhead Dude, fucking whatever. If this asshole doesn't get his ass down here in another, oh I don't know, I don't have a watch, ten minutes, I swear to god I'm going to— 082913 #human Woke up almost & this phrase floated up fast: "synthesize your intentions." Hmm. 1. (transitive) To combine two or more things to produce a new, more complex product. 092813 #human I'm only saying this for posterity, because I'm betting on finding it some time in the future having proved myself wrong, but maybe there is no love like in the movies. 112713 #beach And that's ok. 080913 #soldier Alvin oiled the bearings at the ends of the rollers (two screws each end per roller, round metal plates on outside of feeder) once a year 082413 #human #conferenceofthecrows I heard on the radio a guy named munakata shiko say, "I do not follow in the footsteps of the great masters. I seek what they sought." I like that. 081413 #worm You can draw this intersection on the map. You can chart to your heart's content. Pepper the map with pigeons escaped from the Aviary! But do it now, for god's sake, do it now! 010314 #jonquil *Boo!* Gwen started so hard it felt like her heart was in her throat, bulging like a frog's air bladder. Mary was grinning at her from the doorway to the hallway. 082613 #crow There will be no Capoeira without music, and there will be no grown-up, free Mat without pushing that limit voluntarily, vulnerably, dangerously. It's your dream, Mat. Wake up. 081113 #dog *HIM gives the one smile, the one he learned in prison. ME slowly rolls over and plants his hands, elbows, knees and toes in the grass, and his ass in the air. Ahhhhh, Spring!* 110412 #copperhead Yeah, what is it about that? I almost wonder as my jaw hangs half-slack, sun kicks down my back and pools in the waistband of my loose-fit, dorky-plaid cotton shorts. 000001 #human bisexuality--a natural tendency in those who travel among worlds and lifetimes? You take numerous forms, you learn it doesn't make that much difference what sex you are. 011114 #human My mistress' eyes are nothing like the sun either. Ever notice how the thing you thought you were going to write down becomes irrelevant once you start writing things down? 111912 #copperhead I think this is the first day I actually don't know what day it is. Luckily, it's the first day I don't care. I need a haircut. Of course, I don't need a haircut. 081413 #worm No matter who you think you are, you're always gonna remember that i fucking own you. Got it? You're my little fucking whore, and everything that belongs to you belongs to me. 000096 #human I see posturing, like in the eyes of my con man, when he says I'm being disrespectful, and it has its effect on me. Later, when I realize what it was, it is enraging. 083013 #treefrog 112210. I already get some respect for being a teacher. McDonald's lady gives me free stuff often. Sounds small, isn't. What if I decided to be a really good teacher? 000002 #human How to get without being zombie robot? Must find out. Capoeira called me to the forest. Find out how nonzombie organic chimp creature lives. Find out how. Find out now. 190831 072396 #human Success is lying down at the end of the day, or the end of the century, and feeling good about what you've done and where you've been and whom you've done it with. 000096 #eel I was running across the street in jeans and a dress, trying to look tough (like when you hafta go get your mom's purse and you act like you don't know how to hold it--) 090813 #trout I had a sudden image of an apple tree, bent and crippled in someone's grandma's backyard, lumps of lye wedged in its crotches, dripping whitewash down its gnarly trunk. 081413 #worm Young girls proud of their tits. A group of four, hand to mouth, conspicuously bashful. It's not a work of art, one of them explains, not works of art. It's a map of sorrow. 081413 #worm What exactly do you want from me? She put on a mask of severity, intended not quite to conceal an inner seductive warmth whose unavailability to him would surely drive him mad. 081413 #worm Is anybody going to say anything? Refrigerators buzz quietly about life under the counter. Ventilation fans whisper about nothing. Occasional cars hiss in the street outside. 081413 #worm It isn't much. The whole intact remnant of the Captain's log fits easily, handwritten, on one side of a white packet of sugar. Whoever the Captain was, she didn't get very far: 040404 #squirrel I like reaching out into the world and seeing a shiny red button and pushing it to find something I didn't know I really wanted.. the new possibility of friendship. 081013 #dog *A presence fierce and streamlined swims about the room. ME sets down the empty bottle with a thump. HIM draws from his pants pocket the surprise he has been waiting to reveal.* 081613 #worm You ever been in jail before, sweetie? you ask sweetly. You're a worm! This is a whole new kind of, I mean, this is like a totally way to, I mean, for me. . . , she gasbags. 030696 #squirrel But I want to live in a place where I hear the voices of friends speaking of inane things, daily things. I also want to work. I am tired tired tired of almost working. You're lucky they even let you have electricity, he said, thinking of what his idea of prison must have been. Idiot. But he's my friend, and I sure do love him. Plus, he has cute nipplies. 081413 #worm #roach Instead of the cafe, they find a smoldering heap of charred remains. There's almost nothing recognizable intact. The stump of the milkshake machine pokes forlornly out of the ashes and broken china. 000096 #human And now she is in love with someone else. A carpet installer with a strong sense of family, who knows exactly what he wants. Oh, well. It's not what you have, it's what you throw away that defines you. 102413 #crow And meantime we eat, obsess, worry about chump change, stare at computers and think if we buy them we'll be more powerful, poop, worry about our sagging bodies, and who are THEY? Who exactly ARE the elite? 081413 #worm When she tires of that game, the baby thumps down on her ass, and resumes stuffing cereal into her chumpy cheeks while gathering record numbers of particoloured square blocks in her stubby yet elegant hands. 081313 #copperhead No school, no money, no commitments, no attachments. 102903 #human Where, while I'm standing trying to piss in a bar urinal, in the "G" of the fixture's brand name, engraved on the spotty chrome, do I live. I live in the bottom of the bowl of the "G," a little to the left. 081413 #worm Well, I suppose you could look at it that way. You know, there is a certain plan that is followed, and certain turns and twists and things happen along the way, and you can't explain them nor do you have to. 081413 #worm Him squints back upstream, toward a sinister sliver of sun-fire. Perched atop a gnarly branch, a vulture spreads his umbrageous wings, and speaks, once, then holds still, spread-vultured, for a small eternity. 081313 #copperhead Doesn't flow out there still, in the dark, under the pollution, through the years, in stealth and horrifying silence, darkly, darkly, downhill, persistent, always, neverending, the river, the river. 081613 #worm The pizza comes in a box. I open the lid. A fairy jumps out; she had been crouched on the tiny plastic table, you know the kind I mean, the cheese table. And she says some words of wisdom I shall never forget: 000008 #human Also miss Glenn. Hate to say it, but yeah. Miss walkin' in Memphis. Playing pool. Losing. The changing of songs. The bridge. The visible line. God how I hate to be drunk without you, fucker. But here I am. 081013 #dog Sometimes forgetting what you were going to say is a blessing. 011314 #gracetone the nicked-up dusty piano wheeled halfway out of the wings, quietly, a piece of used furniture; likewise, the lavender end of his dress shirt, hanging out, a loose thread dangling, unnoticed 081413 #worm Please, use me! Use me! Dupe me, lead me on, hurt me! Please! 000096 #squirrel sometimes when you talk you sound like jan brady you mean all the time or jhust while im typing yeah when your typing well i realize it sounds retarded but thats okay yean thats okay 000000 #human I obsess over whether it's possible for me to be a great writer and whose fault it is that I'm not; she obsesses over why donut holes are called donut holes when they're not, really. Who the fuck is more sane? 042403 #human Last night, bathed in candlelight, I said to her: Do I love you? Yes. All the time? No. Enough? I think so. I slept pretty well last night. 164759 012114 #znupikste With that in mind, we packed a few things. We are people who like to fuck with stuff, so I packed for her and she packed for me. Then we went to Znupikste's house to get our weapons. 133728 020397 #squirrel I mean really a girl can only stay down so long before she gets fed up and decides to stand up, dust herself off and get back on the saddle. Didn't you just love that metaphor or what ever it was:) 110913 #gull #monkey And here's the other thing. I mean I'm trying not to be too negative here, I'm trying to lean into it as my monkey friend said. Hey, maybe that should be a new tag. Remind me to teh-dsa that ASAP. 081413 #copperhead That sounds exactly like something he would say. Another of his lame-brained ideas. Like the time he tried as hard as he could to encounter a bear in the middle of a street. Different story. Whatever. 081013 #dog I can't believe I managed to get magically transported all the way back to high school, where I used to complain to myself about not knowing how to play football, without having learned how to play football! 081613 #worm I remember the puke of Cutty Sark, and how Don was secretly proud of me but he didn't say it. I think it was that he was releived that I wasn't a total do-gooder pussy. Like some people I could mention. 122503 #eel Lights and music glowed across the bay. I had text messages on my phone: Hey, it's Art, just wondering if you guys can hear me with your tongues in McDonald's food, or better yet, if you're still alive.... 000004 #bunny It don't matter how hot she be, I'll want a boy eventually ! 110913 #fox remember when the magic was in the uncertainty? Each word was a little spark. You didn't know where they were going to fly. And that was the point. It didn't matter. There was no agenda, that's why it was fun. 082813 #treefrog In 2005, I wrote, "No really, I'm going back to school because I want snotty teenage girls to ridicule me." Have to say though, having experienced it, it's more the boys I tend to worry about. 081613 #worm You sit and stare at the blind walls all day and all night! 050003 #human I am not talking to myself. I am not. No, I am not. Even though I think I am the I in this. And there is no one else here.... No wait. There is someone else here. If you include down there in here. Do you? 081813 #treefrog So yes, the ideas, the concepts that you had were correct, but kids (people) don't give a flying FUCK about concepts. No matter how charming you are. And you aren't, really, not so much, these days. ;-) 010314 #jonquil Mary had just happened to be in the hall outside the office when the principal had gotten finished with Gwen, so she was the first and only one to see the astonishment and amusement on Gwen's face. 112413 #human But I got my room nice and small green & cozy like i like it, pretty much looks pretty similar to like 15-20 years ago. some thihgs don't change too much too fast at least. My life, my art is episodic. 020696 #human in the wee. before i get down to lambasting myself, let me just say, i feel like i've just crawled into my tent on the alpine slope, with my dog, and i'm in my skivvies, writing by candlelamplight. 081413 #worm Long after Bnabe dies, Him starts thinking of him as old man red barn. Glorious, yes, in any light in any window. Him stands there, falling gently, looking nowhere, looking at his [[large nameless quiet friend]]. 000005 #human This morning there was a soggy pepper shaker on top of the rain-beaded USPS mailbox. It made me smile. We are living in a giant, all-encompassing restaurant after all! Hey, can I get some salt over here? 091313 #worm At this point, the dolphin leaps off my shoulder and says, If you want, you can find her in any bookstore, though best is the one that makes you feel at home in a strange place; 081313 #copperhead But hey, that's why god made canoes, right? Um no. Canoes were obviously made to sit and wobble under my skinny ass while I wait all goddamn night for some jackass who's obviously never going to come. 081413 #worm The snoke is censorship, pollution, tax breaks for the wealthy, election scams, rising health care costs, the domestication of the oblivious apathetic. The snoke is a pack of dirty cards in a church basement. 010414 #warmglowbox What are you putting into the box? Obsessing about gear. Getting the one perfect device that's gonna be the last thing if need to buy. Really. Just this one thing. And I can pay for it because... 000094 #human a note on my door on a paper towel that says, "MAtt. BRing your plyers, I need them, (Besides, I already have eveRything Else you own) Don't forget, it's important. / Ron / Your neighbor" God, I love(d) him. 081413 #worm Unfazed, he offered to buy her a tomato juice. Look, I just-- 040006 #human #roach that's not platinum, but it is arrestingly blonde... on her way into the cafe, she looks at her wrist. what is it she's looking for? she's looking to see what time it is, dumb ass! oh yeah. 081413 #worm I brought a little something extra for you boys, she says. She slips the something into one of the pockets of the faded red hoodie Me is shrugging into. Then everybody forgets all about her having done that. 010114 # he was reduced to this: texting "life is completely and utterly meaningless" at 3:00 am, because none of his winks or charming submissions had gained him a toehold. Anything to get her attention! Love reduces us to infancy! 090913 #trout Don't answer it! you hissed. My hand was on the doorknob. I was in my long underwear. 082813 #bunny Yeah I'm still bi, but now I'm a gay guy who's bi, instead of a straight guy who's bi. Yeah, I'm really happy. 000011 #human The time is coming soon. I'm going to need someone to help me go through all this. As I carve out enough idle time to become terrified. When smoke and avoiding mirrors can no longer sustain a hologram of youthfulness. 022210 #treefrog I think Ishanique was hung over this morning. She drank a juice pouch and threw up in the hall. I felt bad for her, until I realized she probably wasn't "sick" but just "hung over." Then I still felt bad for her. 081413 #worm The slender man leans in to say something to Krim--she leans her head back to listen, exposing the pale contours of her neck. Then, as the roller coaster trembles, and crashes down in pieces once and for all, she smiles. 081413 #worm He looks at her again. She looks straight forward. The emerald light of the dashboard dials glows on her cheeks, her chin. Her eyes are dark. Her hands rest on the steering wheel. Ltiky can't think of anything to say. 090813 #worm Camped in camper packed with junk that's goodforyou, we're one and one half steps away from cliff face falling off roadrunner fast and steep to coyote falls way down below: a tinny, tiny crashing noise the sussurating river. 092913 #trout But first you've got to prove to me they you're a *feiry*. You can go the moves, but your energy just goes right down into your plate there. [pause, then after him] You've hot to prove that you're a *duck,* Marchant! 091313 #trout How come pretty much everything you can think of turns out to have an unintended referent in some aspect of popular culture of which you're half proud and half embarrassed to have been unaware? asks my girlfriend. 010314 #jonquil Mary let her left hand rest on Gwen's shoulder as she brushed with her right. Each long, slow stroke tugged Gwen's head back a little, and sent hypnotic tingles around her ears, along her jaw, around her mouth. 081413 #worm She's probably right. Someday, Me and Krim have to face each other. That's all that matters. It can be many years from now. Whenever they're ready. It doesn't matter where or when--as long as it's here. Tonight. Now. 090813 #worm A half-frozen ice cube in my travel mug, melting from the inside out, makes a sound like a miniature liquor bottle: tug-tug-tug-tug-tug-tug-tug, as it spills its little reserve of liquid insides out into the rest of the cup. 051111 #martian 1. Mr tatum used to play with ko-thi. 2. I love my brother, and even my various pseudo-sisters. 3. The slap is more straight-ahead, inside the drum, very similar to an open, than i had thought. 022394 #eel Being in love with you was the great thing we had in common. We felt we understood each other in some way just because of that. We left the room together, went downstairs somewhere to talk about you and other things. 111513 #martian #treefrog - heartbreak is good, you have to be willing to have your heart broken again and again, but - I still don't want to sell shit to idiots for a living. - I think there's more than one kind of treefrog 020397 #squirrel It's not really all that evil, this new phase, it's just a little weird how it happened all at once. Now I think it's time to wash the dishes, get some groceries, start taking care of myself for a while. 000011 #human if i were important, it would prove that she is important as i am not, it only proves that there are nice people in the world, that everyone needs someone to talk to, the unimportant leading the unimportant 040606 #squirrel > and we sat together at Marina Gardens, > eating, drinking and carrying on... (while the old sea-captain at the table behind Freddy watched us from the future) > thank you for > being you. and you. 081013 #dog *HIM whirls, and grabbing out of his locker a fuckin stogey of a magic marker and a piece of poster board, whips up the following billboard, which he then pastes to a wooden ruler with masking tape, and proceeds to wave about:* 110913 #snail These are like bitchin index cards when you think about it. Should you need to spread them out and move them around on a corkboard, is there any way to do that? ++I never did that with real index cards, but whatever.++ 091413 #trout Suddenly, he wants to smoke. He asks the soon-to-be single person for a match. Cigarette lit, he finds the handgun a little less urgent. Oh well. He didn't come this far to fart out now. He reaches into his pocket. 120909 #human It used to be about smoking and typing. Now it's pretty much about smoking. But I still come here, occasionally, when I "can," even though the knowledge of everything I "should" be doing is like a necklace of hogs. 141138 012414 #meerkat #warmglowbox What if for just one day you didn't go to any web pages for no reason. If you feel like doing that to fill in the gaps, just sit there instead, or else do something else. *Try it.* 032594 #eel Peter kinda looked at me like he wondered why I didnt worry about getting in trouble with the higher-ups. But that was just my style. For some reason I had confidence I could irreverently kick this conspiracys ass. 081413 #copperhead "Was that a copperhead?" I ask, after a wriggly splash startles both of us, makes us jerk our gazes toward the hell of tree limbs combing dust and dirty foam out of the stagnant swirl on the bank to our right. 081613 #worm It's amazing how comfortable these strait-laced, iron-armed, curly-toed wooden benches can be, when you're leaning back like Pythagorus in the sun. Clouds are typographical errors that make the sky's page illicitly beautiful. 110004 #human How weird that you can be alone in a room or bunch of rooms, hear a beep, and see a piece of paper move thru rollers, coming out with an image on it that wasn't there before. All without talking to anybody. 060913 #human I'm in the perfect space... NOW. In the one-beer zone. In the hours before sundown, the breezes before rain, the rose bush has some dead branches and some buds. My girls are vital, astonishing, unique, unstoppable. 010314 #warmglowbox What are putting into the box? Umm... possibly... something that's not quite writing but feels close enough that I can distract myself from the fact that I'm ignoring the girls and not trying to get a job? 081013 #dog HIM: I know! Shut up. Just shut up for now. Which way should we turn? ME: [seeming to notice for the first time the maze of halls they've been walking among] Huh? Oh. I don't know. How about left? *They turn left.* 101413 #human There is pleasure in being surrounded by humans in various states of conscious, voluntary vulnerability. Coming here (turtle place) is about the closest thing I have to lovemaking right now. Trust issues? Ok, ok. 000004 #human 2004 Hey. I gotta tell you something. Last night when I gave Cholula her card, and she read it and started crying, saying "I love you. You bring so many blessings into my life," that was powerful. I don't care who you are. 012397 #squirrel My trip to Canada went ok but the guy turned out to be an asshole. He fed me a bunch of lies just like most men do but anyway, I'm ok I think :) Gotta get to class so I'll write more later. Keep in touch, ok!? :) 082813 #elephant 2005 I know I've said all this before, and I know it's not innerestin and stuff, but: I love women. They're so arrestingly beautiful. They're so spatial, so pungent of aura, so regal, so lethal. And yet: I. WANT. A. MAN! 081013 #dog ME: Ha! Right. Um, what I wanted to know was, c-can I eat your shit? Would you shit in my mouth? HIM: Roll me a smoke and I'll think about it. ME: You promise? I mean, you'll really think about it? HIM: Of course. 081313 #copperhead One moment a canoe is a lump of lead that moves inches in exchange for exceptional effort, a grunting encumbrance only fit for purpling your shins; another moment it's the grace of galaxies and symphonies and silence. 090813 #worm You are autumnal, young. It would not occur to you even to imagine how you'll fail. But you'll fail, you'll eat hot spunk & shame. You'll hardly be able to wait for it to be over, and then you'll want to do it all over again. 091313 #trout Attention! he rumbles, with some kind of accent. You will all now submit to me! I am your new liege lord! I am your protector, your superior, and your ideal! Your women will serve me! Your men will quail before me! 010614 #bushmill You know what, she says to Pete, gaze still locked on me, you deserve a little special treatment. She tugs at him, and together they move across the gap between the beds. Mouth dry, I look up at them. 081413 #worm A thick iron bolt crowned snugly by three rusty iron nails, such that when viewed end-on they suggest the shape of a paw, pounded over a hundred years ago into these cream-colored bricks. They're still here. You can touch them. 110913 #snail #tonahutu You made rough stacks in the soft earth, roughly sorting by size or shape or vague idea of future usage, but you did not spend a whole lot of time coming up with a scheme for storing, organizing, and stacking. 080613 #haircut Synchronicity falls into place, a cat leaps into your lap, it's going to lead to perfection, synergy, and a perfect life. Except--remember, it's never that easy. You'll still have to do the work you've been avoiding. 090813 #worm One girl with bleach-blonde hair and a Green Bay Packers jacket is dancing by herself and talking to the wall: "When I'm dancing," she says, "that's the one time I'm free. I can say, fuck what anybody else thinks...." 100112 #human #bunny I would have no problem dating a forty-something-year-old. Hell, I would have done so even in my thirties, maybe earlier. But he would have to be someone who was willing to do a little work to take care of himself. 121513 #human too much coffee monetary mini-crisis (with, thank god, a happy ending) too much screen time christmas already masturbated already tried ASMR vids nothing left to do but tap tap tap until my hollow guts give up 102913 #snail I'm just wondering, wouldn't it be a little artificial if you started tacking "ideas" onto the movements of your words, I mean just grafting on some super-emotional conceit for the sake of proving your maturity? 010314 #jonquil Slowly, she lifted them to her face, pressed them against her mouth and nose and cheek, feeling the coolness, inhaling the perfect clean laundry smell, and yet, irresistably, reluctantly, beginning to imagine— 000005 #human I am a little bit closer to death now, and so I am a little bit more alive. The video game clock tix on; three, two, one, more health to stay in the game, keep mashing those buttons. It's all come down to THIS moment. 081413 #worm *koala bear soda* 081413 #worm *pint of coffee* 080913 does sthis dam thing works? 081413 #worm Simple question. 081313 #copperhead I'm here. 092112 #human I feel hollow. 081613 #worm Chittering Forceps 050913 #meerkat Remember boats? 081413 #worm You're welcome, hon. 081413 #worm *seven layer bar* 081613 #worm Every. Single. God. 081613 #worm What choice indeed? 081313 #copperhead And yet. 081613 #worm What jail does to one. 121213 okay so let's have a dream 081013 #dog *One more drink.* 081613 #worm And you love them. 000094 #human widening circles 081313 #copperhead I'm hungry. 081613 #worm I mean, nobody. 081313 #copperhead And yet. 081613 #worm God I love that. 081413 #worm [glass of water 081613 #worm I've been hurt too. 102413 #squirrel Regrot & Woozus Yay! It works! Applescript is fun. 080913 #meerkat how about now 102413 #squirrel Shasni & Snysti 081413 #worm Whose bitch are you? We're gonna subvert the subversion. 081313 #copperhead Hungry. 081413 #worm A bus is coming. 081313 #copperhead And so am I. 081613 #worm You're so full of shit. 090813 #worm There is poetry in death. 081613 #worm You end up in the hole! 082813 #meerkat Say yes. Say yes, yes. 081313 #copperhead And neither do I. 081313 #copperhead How it calls me. 081613 #worm I am looking at rain. 081413 #worm Oh fuck, please! Please! Dude. Bacteria can survive in space. 103113 #tonahutu It's going to be okay. Man + mobile device already = cyborg 081013 #dog *They have built a fire.* 081613 #worm Is there any more tea? 102913 #otter I just want to play. 040513 #gull teh-dsa is made of listening 111213 #butt you could change this 081413 #worm Time is a little tangled. 011814 #human This song is so weird. 081413 #worm Our poetry? inquires Him. 081413 #worm BEGIN TRANSLATED DOCUMENT. 081413 #worm [cinnamon grahams, coffee] 090813 #roach it's a cafe morning 083013 #treefrog 042308 I feel so fake. 082613 #crow guilt resides in the neck. 082913 #meerkat what are you avoiding? 081313 #copperhead We are nothing. 122113 #meerkat video game clichés 081613 #worm I get that god damn cake. 081313 #copperhead "No problemo." 081313 #copperhead How my soul aches. 081413 #worm there is a smell of horses 081313 #copperhead "Thanks," I say. 081413 #worm *two eggs scrambled dry* 081413 #worm *packet of sugar* 081413 #worm I dunno, she shrugs. Hey, you're pretty good at that, pop. 100713 #human Poverty is another form of loneliness, and money is tobacco. 080913 This is just a test of my new magic cuboid. Whaddaya think? #gull 082513 #finch You realize you are cruising! 111813 #meerkat #thekeyto guilt is pleasure