082613 #vulture entire countryside asleep, we sweep on invisible currents of that lonesome moaning on til morning. 081313 #copperhead Goddamnit I have to piss. I'm going to have to get up, though my muscles still feel hypnotized and dumb. 081413 #worm Who are you? The Aviary wants to know. It gets to ask questions too, you know. No oracle ever worked for free. 070003 #human I feel myself succumbing to the human failing of desiring to create something useful or beautiful to others! 000008 #human Flax seeds. An angel. Two cups. Seasonings. A microwave. A yogurt cup with a spatula sticking out. I give up. 000002 #human #meerkat One ladybug remains (after the others have gone) One lady bug, one pinecone, twelve clothespins. 010314 #jonquil You mean you have this whole fucking place to yourself? And— You're not going to tell your mom, are you? 040201 #human this is feeling like another show where the insane person gets shat on. is this my problem is this my fault 112613 #vines Creatures and events can hide in plain sight by operating on a different time scale than that of the observer. 090913 #trout When the lightning struck again, someone was staring at us through the patio door. My spine turned to ice. 112713 #squirrel Yeah I guess, its cool though less stress but its not like I cut communications some times we need space 010314 #jonquil Mary tossed her jet-black waves and exited the room. Gwen glanced back at the laundry once, and followed. 081613 #worm A voice keeps saying, "You should," while another voice answers, "It doesn't really matter if you do or not." 081313 #copperhead Why *does* that happen to me more often lately? • You said here that the sound of the water *changes* with evening coming on, but I believe later you said it *doesn't* change. 081613 #worm Try to pretend they're not here because they pity you, you jail-brick-sucking piece of cuntass bitch... Bitch. 080913 #treefrog sings one note, over and over during a certain part of the year, in the fetid pond below the swimming pool 000002 #human sometimes i think "mama" is a character some of her characters play. i suspect ruby is the most adept at it. 091313 #finch a spent cartridge; the fingers of a childlike treasure hunter, scrabbling, grubby, with people, happy 052694 #eel the same thing kept going wrong in my life (namely, either I or somebody else kept becoming an axe murderer) 011714 #blackie I've got to get more connected with people if I'm going to turn this ship around in debunked biggie sense. 032596 #human I time travel just to leave messages to myself that say, "stop time traveling! you're unraveling the universe!" 081513 #gull HEY LOOK OVER HERE! CUZ I WANTED TO TELL YOU IT ALWAYS HAPPENS WHEN YOU'RE LOOKING THE OTHER WAY! (IT HAPPENS) 022202 #human I think a lot of us are a little embarrassed at how hushed we were, how grave and reverent, when we thought the world had changed forever. I guess it did, but then again, it didn't. 000002 #human #meerkat Milk crates in the sun and going to every place they say they should never have been stolen from. 082813 #gull 112404 The secret to using teh-dsa as notes is not to look at the notes. Recall it, relive it, but don't cut-n-paste it. [which is funny because I just cut-n-pasted that little gem] 081413 #worm The willow-haired girl and a little blond boy rush up to the window again. Me, a comical tiger, roars at them. 081013 #dog HIM: What's the point? ME: The point is a fantastic mythical creature created in the 17th century by insecure geometricians. HIM: I don't even have to say you're full of shit anymore. It's time to let go of the previous generation of metadata; it's the ongoing relationship with the data that counts. #gull 081613 #worm The radio comes on. A field of pumpkins pelts the periphery of vision. I get a monstrous urge to masturbate. 081313 #copperhead But tea can be good, too. I like some tea, sometimes. Particularly when you're driving on the interstate 010714 #human #tonahutu That's why I was sort of annoyed. Because that kind of inversion is as inevitable as it is unsettling. Child father to the yeah whatever. Pupil surpasses yeah whatever. 040606 #squirrel > this will not happen again in our > lifetimes, nor will this, nor this, nor this, nor this . . . . 080413 #human Nevertheless, I still have not ever quite resigned myself to a state of true sacrifice. What does this mean? 081013 #dog I know we haven't made much fudge together lately, but I thought it worth asking anyway: What does Npydyuan mean? 100213 #gull #meerkat there's a point in any writing sesh where "What are you avoiding?" becomes the only salient question 020301 #human I get jealous of these women whom, when I so-called have them at my so-called disposal, I don't actually want. 081613 #worm When I was nine years old, my uncle used to come over and play whenever my actual mom was incapacitated. . . . 081413 #gull teh-dsa thinks it's pretty cute as a textual abstraction of a divinatory pseudohyperdimensional rectangular parallelepiped 021811 #human I can't think seriously about anything except pussy licking right now. Even though so much is going on in the world. 000096 #human I want to drink the clear water out of the rain pools, the way Dexter does. It looks so fresh and good, and personal. 041808 #eel I wanted anything except to have to go back to that barren, disconnected place. Ann was the essence of home; motherly. 090813 #donkey "He is speaking in the language of most resistance," she says. "Listen carefully. I think you know this language." 100902 #human another gay man walked out of here, coffee in hand, reflected in nineteenth-century bricks. i need to oil the world 081413 #worm What Him means to say then is: I didn't know that show was still on. But what comes out is: Sqwonka wonka wonk wonk woo-op! #storyteller I was trying to decide between two paths, and he wouldn't give me a straight answer. Insisted on telling a story instead. 020008 #eel i don't know if i can keep this up, but i have to, i have to, i will die if i don't and i don't feel like dying yet. 111813 #glow-worms #squirrel The truth is these annual adventures have grown beyond me and have taken on a whole life of their own. 101406 #eel sitting still in a webbed lawn chair at some formal social event while I stared at her smooth, bare, slightly tanned leg 081613 #worm Right before I approached you on the dock that day, and saved your slender life? Tel, vian, teers, stomy, tera, sor.... 000096 #human there Is ALWAYS, WITHOUT EXCEPTION, SOMETHING UNDER THE SURFACE. SOMETHING MORE TO A PERSON THAN YOU CAN SEE AT FIRST 121513 #human #celeste the kids will surprise you and you will surprise yourself Celeste gave me a tarot reading and it said that 081013 #dog HIM:HIM: you wanted wanted you YOU: I am born. HIM: You are? YOU: I am. And I will always be a part of you, now. 081613 #worm I hate having my own girlfriend, in case you hadn't noticed, but I sure like someone else's' being in the room. Whatever. 212653 012214 #canary I love. She said. You know, he said, I don't she said. They did. It was mostly good. 213147 120413 #human Pulling the cutting board out of the cabinet, and the rattling of the other pans in there, gives me immense satisfaction. 081413 #worm The forlorn manner with which the dragon asks this question nearly breaks the Aviary's heart. Time is a little tangled. 081613 #worm And now, back to your regularly scheduled jail sentence. Did you think we were going to let you off that easily, you 081413 #worm Him pauses. An ectoplasmic ecosystem of ghosty imperturbations bat-flaps up into the cobwebbed spaces of that sickly pause. 000002 #human i've got news for you, buddy. this is not technology. this is the long neglect of the mechanism of our own elevation 120713 #trout Zener? I know you can understand what I'm saying. If anyone can. Man, you know I always got respect for you. 000002 #human #meerkat Small, pert, green bottle. Overwhelmingly dark woodwork against white wall wavy with the undulance of time. 010514 #bushmill Pete had wanted to know why I'd quit school. I couldn't really think of a convincing answer. It was too easy? 081413 #worm Do you want to die? Me screams, and the kids retreat, screaming. Me laughs. He hears their giggles. The game continues. 091313 #finch i forgot about my problems for a little while (they came back) like georgia like gentle like you were always 081413 #worm Me asks again, softer this time. The boy starts to shake his head no. Me asks once more, and the boy nods yes again. 081413 #worm Oh ... if enjoying yourself and being free enough to explore the more carnal pleasures of life makes me a whore, then fine. 081613 #worm I distinctly, for one second, remember the tang of gin in the illegal autumn of clandestine drinking. My bad years. 081613 #worm Hello, hi, hi, hello, howzitgoin. Two flies circling the light fixture. They're walking, not flying. Dumb fucking flies. 091313 #roach Cigarette? it said, and I said, No thanks. I gotta get going. Then I proceeded to sit there for the rest of the day. 081413 #gull Is a worm anything from the old stuff, or is it just subterranean? Am I going to go back and get more humans out of DAYS? 081613 #worm Those lips touch a quarter-moon's worth of a plastic cup of water, and welcome the energizing flow. It's morning! Again. 092213 #trout somehow the essence of poverty is hungry cats circling around; stray brushes of paint that got on the lightswitch covers 104031 012314 #spoonman because it's a cliché. Go with the cliché and see where it takes you. Life is a fucking cliché. 104238 081613 #worm Sorry, guys, we've got to adjourn til tomorrow. The interview man sighs. Looks like he's going to have to do his thing. 082613 #gull What makes a story a story is the happening of a thing you thought couldn't or at least definitely shouldn't happen. 092413 #finch stronger than empathy; imaginary wine 082713 #gull There are new growths in the old forest. Remember to look there. 081413 #worm The inevitability of mutual self-seduction must surely eventually become tiresome in a situation such as this. And yet -- 072713 #human Tv says we're just supposed to think of "always working" as normal, ok, even some kind of down home virtuous. Serfs. 040004 #human right now i'm still a man trying to look like a man who has learned or perhaps remembered how to move like a free man 090813 #worm A fervent role-playing game is going on around my coffee table, played by people in trenchcoats and strange jewelry. 081413 #worm If you ever want me to knife you in the gut and kill you right fucking on the spot, just say something like that again. 082613 #gull To make a "fictional" blog would be an unnecessary contrivance. It would also be noticeable, like a narc's car in a ghetto. 072706 #vulture violent femmes not talking much intitial shyness mutual winter streets chaffee "that's a staple for my sister" 091413 #trout Oh, but that night. The secret water. The pines. The enthralled few, and how they passed the bottle from soul to soul. That night! His heart sang in secret whenever he thought of it. 040304 #squirrel >Grrrnglr. Why do you already feel so good to me. *wry* Who knows? Maybe we're connected somehow. *wry back atcha* 090813 #worm One woman, dressed in jeans and no shirt, fine breasts tight-skinned and almost demure in the candlelight, is playing guitar. A bird, some sort of parrot, sits on her shoulder. 081413 #worm Chanting floors descend outside the doors; down seems to be going up around them. The elevator goes sideways, sometimes too. 000003 #human When you're the only one in your head, no one can tell you how serious you are when you tell yourself you hate your life. 102913 #snail #wirydog I can see small veins in the underside of one ear--it's inside-out, like it always used to get for some reason. 010314 #jonquil Close the door! Gwen did as she was told. Immediately there was a scratching and a whining. Oh for fuck's sake. Should I let him in? Sure, whatever. Stupid mutt. 000001 #human People will come into and go out of my life how they're meant to, and there's nothing I can do about it anyway except be there and ready, and so that's all I'm going to do from now on. 010614 #bushmill Hey kid, Pete says as he ambles out of the way so I can climb up into the bitch seat. Since when did I become a kid? 000096 #human I have the power of the campfire. In my breast pocket. Smoke pours out in a narrow milklike stream. So the cards tell me. 091413 #trout Turkey or not, however, he knows that children are not innocent. Well, some of them aren't. Okay. That one. She's not. 081813 #treefrog It's not too late. We can salvage this train wreck, and then I can have some credibility when I'm trying to convince students that they can salvage their train wrecks, too. 090913 #roach go, for good go ahead, throw your life away, go or die go, Skip to the end. go as maple leaves down the curvy slide go. 091313 #trout She watches me smoke until The Food Turns To Ash In My Mouth. Suddenly, she gets all serious and interested in me again. 081613 #worm We'd light a joint if we had one, but supply lines are short. It's this new government; it's going to take a while for the scum and sleaze to get their act back together. But they will. 080913 #copperhead the first ¶ is utter nonsense. Then the tone is way more cutesy-chatty-fakey than it becomes not that much later on. 000004 #elephant I'm such a weird fag wolf boy pirate. I love being gay with her but i also can't completely resist the other thing.... 000096 #squirrel hahah what the fuck is so funny i'm just thinking of all the things that i could do if i was nothing what. 081613 #worm Smoke the rhythm of Canal Street. Tornadoes and houseflies. Elevators and the great within. Skateboards, music. Caricatures and rose dust. Loss. Smoke. Brother and sister, smoke. 102313 #robot so compelling because they have vision. They see what we don't see, and they can't be more excited to tell us about just that 081613 #worm Of course. Other people see the news, too, dumbass, I tell myself. I glance up at the red LEDs faux-rolling blinkily along. 110713 #squirrel #meerkat Take a deep breath. Feel your feet in your shoes, and your shoes touching the ground. Take another deep breath, through your nose. Let it out through your mouth. 000001 #human I'm not ready to talk about Ann's kidney failure (?) and peptic ulcer yet, nor how I'm ever going to feel not tired again, living with her (or probably anybody for that matter). 081313 #copperhead i say i've never been able to figure out what it is that finally makes you ready to go over the high dive. Well...? 081013 #dog KYTTAG: Well...? XIFRER: Well, what? KYTTAG: Are we still guilty, or what? DOKAD: Do you feel guilty? *Enter ZARKU.* 082513 #gull all I want is a world built out of text. Not a story, not a novel, not even a huge poem, but a real, organic, explorable world 000097 #human It's time to start taking care of myself again. There's tea leaves clogging the drain, I hardly have any counter space left, no forks, crust of long-forgotten meals on the blue plates. 081613 #worm Prisoner jailed for principles, group claims. Prez says, Revisionist History still Immoral, hurts Country.... I thought so. 081413 #worm #meerkat I have: pumpkin, carrot, watermelon, flower mix, tomato, marigold, forget-me-not, aster, pea, and zinnia. Which one? 081413 #worm Damn. If that guy shakes his head any more, he's gonna give himself a neckache! Omsatigo and the whore go back to the apartment to dye Omsatigo's hair, and do each other's nails. 081413 #worm I said, get real. You come here to look at the boys. Get looked at by the boys. Stretch out naked and taut. With a smile on your face. And all the while pretend none of it is happening. 081013 #dog BARP: How old are you, anyway? HIM: Old enough. *Suddenly, HIM is a virgin again. But you can't tell by looking at him.* 111812 #human #crow Funny how I'm right back here again, isn't it? That snake always has a way of tricking himself into thinking that pointy, wiggly steak really *isn't* his own tail this time. 100607 #eel My brother was watching the giant computer with me. I said, "So they don't even know if it exists?" and he said, "It has nuclear weapons on it," as if that explained everything. 081413 #worm A moment later, after a ragged exhale, a tinny but pleasantly female voice says, Perhaps you would like to turn on the water. 101503 #trout Give me one black cup of coffee, a hot ceramic idol with which, privately in public or t'other way around, to worship her. 081013 #dog *Enter CHOLULA. Her tits are fat and sassy. Her jeans creak like an opulent sailboat as she sits down on the low brick fence.* 081813 #treefrog It's CONNECTIONS with actual adults (not ones who are just trying to be "friends") that makes a kid turn into an adult. 010897 #squirrel Hey guess what your name is so damn long I already forgot it! HA HA HA HA HA HA!!!!!!!! have a Great DAY MD SChult 081413 #worm Me glances at Him, gives a half a smile, glances down at another sheet of paper, and casually starts erasing things. 090813 #worm starcoloured windowpane one word two then three then four then giggling, a high quick yelp, then silence 3:14 am again. 081413 #copperhead The girls behind the counter are sucking on suckers, but the flavor they'll exude, once they actually stop what they're doing to look at me, will be careful tolerance--at best. 000096 #human Three straws, or else two, I'm not sure, have already popped off. It's all right, though, it's only a broom! 081413 #worm Me is chastised. But yes. Yes, he would have. The tuning keys at the neck of his spine, already tightly wound, turn one notch tighter. 081413 #worm She smiles sadly. Krim, this is my wife. So saying, Ltiky steps back like a salesman who's just unlocked the glass display case. 000005 #human #crow I only hope I can fulfill my function before I am burned to a stinking crisp. If I can, I will have no real regrets. 081413 #worm Walk along, thinking these thoughts, not thinking these thoughts. The night is yours. I can't promise you the future, but tonight, I give you tonight. That much I can promise. 083113 #robot 2011 Spent ten dollars on iA Writer. Guess what? still iNotA Writer. But that's okay, though. We're all gonna die soon anyway. 120012 #human #sialia I was so foolish because I didn't realize I was right all along. When I was so pissed, that was when I was so correct. 102109 #treefrog SURPRISE: Zoller kicked ass on the Fill In The Blank Poetry thing. Then he didn't want to read it cuz it was about love. 081813 #treefrog Keandre said, Admit it! You get a kick out of us! I said I do, but there's a difference between personal and professional. 081313 #copperhead I desperately want something to happen. Sometimes, though, nothing happens. That's, as they all too stupidly say, life. 080413 #human When we were in Columbia after Shakespeare's, Megan said, "I just want to keep walking and walking." She loves the city life. 081413 #worm Him says: In a minute, I'll tell you why I have to have a smoke, along with anything else you could ever possibly want to know, but first, dammit, and thank you, I have to have -- 030006 #human People who take themselves too seriously tend to spend a lot of time with people who don't take themselves seriously enough. 081413 #worm She turns around, blessing him with the savvy coyness into which her old coquettishness has evolved, and steps farther in. He follows. 081613 #trout Shopping malls, tube-lit halls, miles and miles of dime store drug store blazing unsecret shrinkwrapped surfaces concealing 000000 #human That one syllable split open the chilly room--fissures triangulated and spiderwebbed the whole space with shattered radiance. 091313 #elephant The acrid angularity of the black-haired wife just makes my own lost love seem so much more epically soft-focused and perfect. 053013 #human Look. I'm trying to talk to you and you keep trying to define your brand. Can you just. Just stop that. For a second please? 081013 #dog I know we haven't sucked the bumpy dick of the silent hispanic dude lately, but I have to tell you, I am a pretty awful person. 081413 #worm I would guess so, she says, finally, carefully. I fucking knew it! God! Lighten up a little. And get a vibe or somehting. Shit. 021006 #human Or, to put it another way, Children are the Mothers of Necessity. Because of Megan, stories flow even though I can't "write." 081413 #worm It's me, you idiot, says the blond boy, now thoroughly wet with following them. To the sassafrass! he cries. Behind the sycamore! 102913 #snail #wirydog Sitting on a step more sawdust now than the rich dark brown it was once, I reach out and touch the dog's stiff coat. 081213 #touchtunnel tingly curiosity fear of touch of loss of getting squeezed too tight but the curtained portal draws you in 050005 #human How I know you're away: I had a romaine, carrot, radish, peanut and bacon salad. With parmesan cheese. And fresh tarragon. 081613 #worm I remember semen stains on the pillow, and how weird that feeling in my stomach was. I remember when that was all so far away like stars and how fast I'd come back to earth. 082813 #treefrog 2004 Why am I reluctant to be a teacher? 1: I'm still afraid of kids, and 2: everybody's expecting me to. 081613 #worm She disappears, turns into a brick, goes through the window the wrong way and I get blamed for it. So much for parole this year. 081613 #worm I am looking at the wafer thin slice of pie that is left. I am looking at the plate it used to fill. I am looking at crumbs. 081413 #worm Ltiky's wife wakes up, hugs herself--then exhales, fully, for the first time in years. It's real this time. She has her name back. 081313 #copperhead I mean, what does that even mean? What am I supposed to be doing? But I'm driving, that's what I'm doing now. My knuckles 081613 #worm And just like that, in the quiet, it was born. And in its birth, of course, was imprinted its demise, along with all of ours. 081613 #gull It's just moments. That's what I do. I make moments. I just want to fill the rest of this box with moments, that's my big goal. 000002 #human * Funny how that works: to the questions "What's the best thing you've ever heard?" and "What's the worst thing you've ever heard?" I can give the same answer: my baby crying. 092511 #human #mistress "...and if you decide not to, I will take you down. And I think you know I can do that. You've been seeing it." 111813 #hellsmarker the stellar wind blows lego men, so cute and deadly, smoking funny things not laughing, into the toilet-stall of a station 081413 #worm A cat is welcome to go with them, if she wants to. Let her slip in, between the trundling doors. The cat is the willow-haired girl. 011114 #tinker #roccity If you could have the power to write things into (or out of, I guess) existence, would you trust yourself to do so? 000094 #human Re training: Don't command him like you're mad at him, command him like you're trying to help him. PATIENCE is the main thing. 111103 #eel Speaking of which, with apologies for the graceless segue, you never told me how your affair with the married girl went? 090913 #roach and then he was silent. He looked at me. I looked away. I looked back. I nodded. He raised his glass. I moved on to the next car. 081413 #worm I want you to do ten--no, five, because you have a hard-on and I feel sorry for you--five pushups, and then stand up and jerk off. 120413 #human I have so much advice and ten-second wisdom burbling around under my non-existent hat, I am come back around to paralyzed again. 082613 #meerkat always asking "what am i supposed to be learning from this" seems wise, but occasionally you might want to answer the question. 081013 #dog *HIM is not convinced. ME is not fully awake. The cockroach in the <furniture> stabs bleakly away at his <work in progress>.* 030705 #eel Smoking is a substitute for learning a skill. Learning something is hard. It takes time. Smoking is easy. It's a substitute. 000002 #human it's getting smoky INSIDE the train! ahead, a tunnel we toy with staying inside in the dank, but duty is a lumbering freight 040513 #trout Smoke the rhythm of Canal Street. Tornadoes and houseflies. Elevators and the great within. Skateboards, music. Caricatures and rose dust. Loss. Smoke. Brother and sister, smoke. 090813 #worm That's the main thing I like about bars. They are full of stories if you want them, otherwise you can sit and drink and look. 081413 #worm Smoke. Add slender, personal tendrils from their cigarettes to the bonfire's writhing wraith. It all leads back to the same source; itself. 101813 #meerkat On the other hand, *don't* buy that thing you're thinking about buying. 081113 #meerkat Get rid of all the liquor in the house. 081413 #worm The brakes of the truck hiss, obscenely nearby. Somebody out there yells an unintelligible syllable into the crackling night air. 100004 #human Your naive, essential honesty overpowers your reluctance to reveal. It finds ways to circumvent your self-conscious obedience to irony. 082613 #neighbor It's hot, bad-tasting and smoky up here on the second floor amidst all the people who look, because I am a zombie, like zombies to me. 000094 #human I feel I am going to need, for my own sanity, to make a decision soon about what I want to do with myself, about what I want to work on. 020007 #human It could all end tomorrow. Tonight, even. In our pajamas. We're not ready. The dolphins are smiling up out of the bathtub, oblivious. 082813 #gull What ahhh, Nahpiddywan ahhh, celebrates is, uh. Dyer, ahhh, I donno ahfergohhhht! DUHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!! I AM SOFA KING WE TODD ED!!!!!!!!!! 081313 #copperhead After call-backs, a kind of blankness gets the lead. The others, offered bit parts, circle the house warily, watching, waiting. 081013 #dog *Enter ROY. His face shines with discovery. He will not say what he has discovered, but you suspect it has something to do with his cock.* 000096 #squirrel phoooooo whats with the long exhalation ive been waiting to exhale shit haha howcome we always end up talking about sex 042113 #trout Outpost Hill Hi point with one pine nestled in a U-shaped turn in the stream, last point downstream side of the river kingdom. 081413 #worm I'm going outside to smoke now. And think about what I've done to my life. I'll let you know how it goes, next time I visit this moment. 120413 #human Also along about September or October, I decided to stop depending on coffee to get to work every day. My point is, change is possible. 091313 #treefrog No really. You should plan, you should have an outline. You should make some kind of goals for yourself. Really. Don't live like me. 081013 #dog *HIM and ME munch their bark. The owls slip down the sunrise. Sounds like another quirky evening. There are 1,435 bugs in the courtroom.* 120913 #snail A healthy skepticism is good. There's great grey woolly masses of clouds behind you, before you an oaken slab. The climate is changing. 081413 #worm But as she teeters, she whirls; Pudob is blessed with a view of her ermine smile as she latches onto his arm, and pulls him down with her. 081613 #worm Yeah, that too, he says in that abrasive, nasal, uneducated but spitefully smart voice he's starting to seem to have. When he talks to you. 060212 #human The rules are all there. The books have all been written. You, too, can Teach Like a Champion. So why does it seem so impossible today? 081213 #eel Ill didn't want to give me the food until I practically begged. She said okay we'll just slip this under here, and she tucked my no-good 091313 #trout No really, what's going on in there? I mean, why don't you just give up the pretense, and start watching TV like the rest of the world? 092704 #eel something reluctant and sexy, walking with her dad, who surprisingly understood me, along the crotchety sidewalk by the lightning tree 010514 #bushmill Mel almost starts to say something. There's a red light up ahead. The snowflakes get big, smashing themselves on the windshield. 091413 #trout There are exactly three couples, two groups of four, four singles, and one threesome that's about to become a couple and one single. 081813 #treefrog And one by one, the excuses are falling away. I am still here, I am not giving up, I am not running back to safety. I can do this. 010314 #jonquil Somebody, she said aloud to the dark corners of the A-shaped ceiling, is trying to tell me something. Pause. About waffles! 071913 #martian Dancing is dangerous, singing is just pathetic Every single thing is a different thing (Libby) The guy who just stands there 111813 #meerkat #thekeyto boys is... 101313 #dolphin The older a male dolphin is, the more likely his body is to be covered with bite scars. 000005 #human Know what's funny? I use a collection of anonymous, emptily pornographic images to construct a personally meaningful erotic narrative. 010314 #jonquil Mary didn't seem to care—or notice? As Gwen's pulse raged in her own ears, Mary hung onto the door jamb and swung into the room. 100305 #eel --a heated sequence of mutual undressing--sense of shame overpowered by resignation to the inevitable--and plain old inarticulate lust-- 000002 #human (every little piece of dirt that got stuck to a young man's scuffling shoe, skyward when he had no home looking for a place to get wet 081413 #worm Got a light? asks Hanad. He holds out his hand to accept Him's brushed-metal zippo. His hand is smooth, olive-hued; his wrist is delicate. 081313 #finch why shouldn't I drink now? The answer is: 120725.txt (Note: this is also a suggestion for a #meerkat of some sort.) 082913 #human I'd rather be a 50 year old woman who still knows how to move her hips, than a 24 year old strapping buck who hasn't learned that yet. 081413 #copperhead We stand there, until the sun is no longer in the place where it was, and the river is no longer, as they say, the river it was. 080913 #demons #squirrel What's important now is your future, and you are young enough to make the changes necessary to find a meaningful career path. 101503 #trout And now I can go home, disgusting, inanimate, and for one killing moment in the alley filled with night and clicking beetles, happy. 010314 #jonquil Whatever. It can wait. My mom doesn't care. She'd pay you even if you didn't do a damn bit of work around here. She *likes* you. 091313 #trout The square castle looks up at the stars. The stars see themselves in the languid cistern. Where have all the people gone? Ask the moss. 031212 #human Told Libby it was bedtime and she had to settle down; her response, while jumping on the bed: "I don't settle down! I save the world! I'm BATMAN!!!" 082313 #gull It's coming back. Every time it comes back it brings with it something it didn't have before--and every time, it has lost something it did have before. 081413 #worm Look, just relax. She takes his collar between her fingers, and bends herself against him in that curve only women doing this sort of thing bend into. 092513 #human Geese on the soccer field, 8:00 am. "Chase them away!" cries one boy, jersey flapping in the dewy breeze, as the infinity of PE class stretches out ahead. 082207 #eel I said, "Who the fuck is Tom?" then went outside (we lived in a tallish old apartment building near a city street) to help someone help me work on my car. 110301 #eel He said the more priveleged practitioners, to get the same powers as the naturally-powered serfs or peasants, would carry the bones of a possum with them. 082313 #gull 2002 i know this is not going to be news to ya, but there is a helluvan element of the teh-dsa that can never be archived, because it is an experience. 000096 #human Even if saying "I love you too" to mom at the end of each phone conversation is just a ritual, it is a good ritual, and one that will help me later. 112494 #human thanksgiving dinner is leftover Frasier Mess casserole. today T and I went down to the Sea, and a big old hunk of me didn't come back, will never. 091013 #crow Are you caring for me or are you bludgeoning me? You say "it's because I care" while you act out "I am deeply dissatisfied with who and what you are." 021013 #human SO SICK of the complicity of a large portion of this country in allowing anyone to do whatever the HELL they want as long as they ACT CHRISTIAN enough. 000003 #human Last night, falling asleep, I remembered how much I love to sleep alone. And get those faint aqua-white flashes of dream on the incoming alpha-theta highway. 000000 #human On my way back around to the driver's side, the thing that happens to me sometimes, happened to me. I looked around and saw where I was, and it was good. 081313 #copperhead My ears suddenly feel loud. I want to go somewhere. I want to be somewhere else. What the fuck is this? Why am I sitting here? I'd get up, but— 120813 #human You don't notice how empty a habit is until you interrupt it, no matter how artificial it feels at first to do so. Then you can't not notice it ever again. 000096 #squirrel you know i jsut realized something. what it's someting i do all the time, and today i did it again, what? well, i fell into my favorite trap. 040013 #human Libby's first soccer practice. Nice clear wet spring day; sunshine still a bit tentative just like Libby herself. I think she'll get into it, though. 010714 #lifeboat #robot You could go on like this for hours. Some nights, you probably will. And that's okay. **You will get through the spillage.** - Trust me. 040513 #barbedwirefence