I'm pretty optimistic, but sometimes I feel I'm going to explode with despair. I enjoy ritual but am skittish about religion. I like to smoke pot sometimes, but I have to not smoke it most of the time. When I get super-excited, I sometimes have to go to the bathroom. The only other mention of this phenomenon I've ever encountered was in a "Calvin & Hobbes" comic. I like to be sexually dominated, humiliated, and/or cuckolded by certain women. Computers are cool as hell, but they'll probably never be <i>quite</i> as cool as my first electric Smith-Corona was, given to me by my dad. Capoeira called me to the forest. How text looks is often about as important to me as what it says. I am fascinated by scientific and psychological phenomena I don't quite understand, such as chaos, quantum mechanics, fractal geometry, synchronicity and divination. I am bisexual--though what that means to me is not as clinical nor bilaterally symmetrical as it sounds. I used to play percussion in a goth-hillbilly-rock band. I wore skirts to shows. It was a fucking blast. We really sucked! I wish I could just snap my fingers and become physiologically female. Being able to switch back would be fine, too, but even if it was one-way I'd still do it. I deeply distrust the Psychiatric profession, particularly the business of medicating people. (And the Pharmaceutical companies, too....) I have a rather cool, though not extraordinarily lucrative job with a very small, laid-back printing company. I enjoy the machines and people I work with. I'm kind of afraid if my employer hires a temp to do my job while I'm on vacation, the temp will perform better than I, and I'll lose face, status, or my job. I can't get "Another Postcard ... from Chim - pan - zeeeeees!" out of my head right now. I used to be a crybaby big time, but nowadays I'm a little more likely to persevere. "Raising Victor Vargas" is one of the best movies I've seen in a while. I'm going to see Barenaked Ladies (cool) tonight with my sister-in-law (very cool)!