Whereas the *previous* night I merely *suspected* I was dreaming, and was cautiously optimistic that her being back wasn’t real... mil at fucking 6:45 am: i got a little nervous and ended up getting here 15 min early I just started lucid dreaming um sorry?? ur probably awake now if ur texting me Yeah. 😒 Your mom was back in my life but this time I figured out that it was a dream and I was so relieved! I started walking along this pathway and was so excited I started talking to this woman and was like, hey I'm dreaming! and told her the whole situation and she was like that's cool etc etc but she was having kind of a bad day. She worked at a library at a six flags and I was like that's such a great combination and I was about to suggest that maybe everyone's "real" world was just someone else's dream world so maybe she shouldn't worry about it so much ugh the front doors are locked because only the drive thru is open? imagine telling someone ur having a bad day and they say it's probably someone elses dream relax It made sense in context still don't know what I'm supposed to do about the doors I texted that Carlos guy but idk no response 😭😭 I mean the whole convo started out with "hey I'm dreaming" and she has already accepted that Kick in the door? No —— ANyway. The point, besides that millie needs to start learning to figure small shit out on her own, because it’s hard enough for me to stay asleep as it is, is that I feel like there’s a connection between me realizing it was a dream and how moments before, in the dream, I had just said “I’ll be moving out with the girls then” in response to whatever bullshit she was saying, instead of just the old leaden sinking acceptance like i used to feel in these dreams. Prior to that, there was a thing about an old lover that she was going to see and that part was kind of exciting, a little bit of the old sexual stuff. I picked up one of her shoes that she dropped on the trail, because I figured I could “use” it later while thinking about what she was doing without me. But all that got overshadowed by her, and then later holly herself, telling me, beside an underpass next to standing water (that hadn’t been there before and was now blocking our way back) writhing full of fish, that holly was going to move in with us, and they hadn’t talked to me about it first. That’s when I just matter-of-factly said I would move out. I had thought of it as an option before, when just *she* told me, but holly wasn’t there yet, but this time, now, when i actually said it out loud to both of them, I added the “with the girls” part, and that made all the difference.