[sleeping at the hospital again] sex with glenn--a heated sequence of mutual undressing--sense of shame overpowered by resignation to the inevitable--and plain old inarticulate lust-- there was a part where maybe someone--maybe our parents (specifically dad & ruth)--were seeing, but we couldnt stop-- at the end, i made a semi-accusation: Youre a dead man!--almost as if i felt obliged to make it seem as though it was a big deal. But it wasnt, really, not so much.