Kate & I were taking refuge at moms house in Cape. Laurie Coburn was there, taking care of things, watering plants, offering occasional advice. Kate & went in my (den) room. We loved each other, but more than that we had decided to go with it. To hell with the consequences. I told her I couldnt stay away from her any more. It was a free feeling, nagged only by the thought of how I was going to tell Ann, how I was going to deal with that. But in the foreground, Kate was saying, I assume were going to have sex, but when? And we did, then, I got on top of her and tried not to be too brutish. She got on top of me and said, Its time? and came, a sudden thick warmth around my groin. I reached down, smiled, gathered some of the moisture on my fingers, tasted. It was sweet and I said so. But you havent discharged yours yet! she accused politely. I was about to get back on, but Laurie came in and said we had to go, my mom would be home soon. Later I was going to ask mom how I should leave my old life, if it was morally excusable in the slightest, what I should say to Ann. But she was occupied in the basement with a repairmanthe back furnace kept hooshing out gallons of water all over the floor, so I held my tongue. Later I was going to ask my dad. We were in the car, a convertible, going somewhere. I guess I woke up before I got to ask him.