Ann says she spoke with Zee, and learned some things from Megan about The objects she gave me a wand or scepter parts of me know how to use it parts of me are learning parts of me will parts of me don't want to a key for something i'm making as i was sitting there trying to figure it out--keys open doors, but HOW?--it occurred to me that the nature of the key could be reflected in how i was thinking about the key. I mean, I was thinking, maybe it's not just one answer that's going to pop into my head, BAM, and there you have it. Maybe it means a whole bunch of different things, (like the splits being like bifurcations for instance), and you can just let your awareness of it evolve, many layers of meanings that grow as time goes on, alive and not alive at the same time, you don't have to understand it all at once--! And I realized yes, that's a perfect description of the dumanstupid house. the third thing? [ann woke up too soon when the phone rang] i asked if Megan told her about the things in that order, she said yes. Well, the order I became aware of the things when Megan gave them to me in the first place was: gray dry twig, split green twig, puffball-thingy with orange growth. In the dream I was afraid that last one meant I had cancer or something. I don't think so now (this note added 2/11/02: maybe has something to do with the baby?) And what about the unseen other thing or things I felt she gave me? Ann also said Megan said I have to help her. She can't do things in this world, my world, without my help. And that yes, I will need her help, too. Perhaps we will meet at the amusement park soon? In the woods? In a bar? Underwater--not sure I'm ready for underwater just yet. That was fuckin scary, that other time. Maybe if it was nice blue sunny underwater, like where otters and sea lions live. Also was thinking about bisexuality--a natural tendency in those who travel among worlds and lifetimes? You take numerous forms, you learn it doesn't make that much difference what sex you are. (this note added 3/18/02: o but it does, sometimes it does!)