i just want to change everything - relaxing, making different decisions about how to deal with the girls’ (and my) various infractions - getting more patient, letting some shit go (it’s not a defeat); you don’t have to prove your superiority through a display of rage - spend my time on brightness, rejuvenation, or even calm nothing - budget and allocate some energy to some of the many ideas I have floating around all the time - let the girls be who they are; i’m not going to nag megan about her room anymore and see what happens - let me be who i am, not who i think i have to act like as a parent and a man and whatever else (2014)