070855 good morning shame anxiety and the shadow of lust and rage today let's play a little game called see if I can get thru a day without letting you make me eat a whole bunch of weird food items and watching a whole bunch of dumb shows right before bed. let's see if I can stay just a little bit more in the room so to speak, instead of letting you whip me into a corner like my ex wife used to do. you know it was different cuz I begged her to do it. I sought her out and tried to sculpt her into a concrete statue of someone who would always do it, and always be the best at it. and it worked too well. hey maybe it's not that different after all. (2014)