the stuff of nightmares not being able to go to doctors, so simple stuff would just spread, and grow, and overtake--a minor skin disease would become a disfiguring horror--helplessness, vulnerability, lack of resources, being utterly outcast, pathetic and writhing inside bags of useless, betraying flesh, looking out in silent, wild-eyed desperation while others look away--eventually sinking into irretrievable, unloved despair stuff "they" hold over you (2104)