#suds Coming home from shadow day on the new route that's populated with probably some really nice people and also signs that say shit like “we dont call 911” with a picture of a gun, Having stuffed myself full of awful soothing fat on the way home Bitch tits Chaos of kids in the drive and older kids in the house watching tv and little messes everywhere where particularly i would notice them but someone else might not get why or how theyre a big deal. Cats Noise The asphalt crumbling Megans somehow suspicious attitude, i feel like shes already learned more than i had admitted to myself about manipulation of me and probably others too including herself Being low class Feeling out of control Not knowing how to treat the fast growing ones Worried about screwing up on the new jobs Wishing hard i would hear about the other job and kinda in the incomfortble shitty cynical process of convincing myself im not going to get it Again As usual Still low class I never grew up Big baby (2015)