i think it's about megan, how i feel like something's up with her, her wrists, her internet friends, her reactions and responses to things, how she disappears up to her room as soon as possible all the time, and how i feel like i can't "do" anything but i feel like there's a need for something to be done. also i think it's about the PO job and being nervous about all the uncertainties and energy requirements of that also i think it's about the eAchieve job and all the uncertainty around that, and how if I don't get it it's going to be time to start asking and answering a lot of questions also i think it's about a lot of other stuff, but those are my biggest suspects at the moment (2015)