I wonder if she kinda likes the aftermath of these little mood swing breakdowns—cuz i tend to treat her more gently, and demand less of her and nag her about snacks and stuff less, etc, etc. Like am I being sinister and paranoid and self-centered and awful if I think maybe that's part of the appeal of having the breakdown in the first place? Like maybe it's a frustrated outcome of a buildup of feeling like she doesn't have control, respect, freedom, trust, etc? (2016)