#to work on now - friends - saying yes to the girls - delayed gratification (money) - which includes how to self soothe and chase mundanity away in ways other than making purchases - like one of the other ways could be by helping someone else who needs you, being present with someone else, like for example Millie—yeah the heat vents smell weird and there’s all this other shit but we already know all that. What we *don’t* know is what the hell is going on with Millie and what exactly she needs and how I can help. But maybe I do know at least a little bit of that, if I get quiet and listen. - remember when you assumed a computer would last at least 7 years, and it was taken for granted that you didn't have the latest and greatest? - how to be able to see a large number in your account balance and still not succumb to the need to make a large fancy purchase - how to even think in terms of the future existing at all - how to follow through on your trade off of not eating out all the god damned time. - how to not be secretly driven by shame - treat it as a virus: a virus or like the type of bacteria that secretly make you do & think & eat stuff; so it's like you have rabies or AIDS or something and you don't have to get 14 shots in your belly but you do have to be aware, be aware, and set up a precautionary perimeter! (2016)