Last year I wrote: “It's probably no mere coincidence that this night happened the day after I had another one of those dreams where *she's* back--the wretched, sunken feeling--the profound relief when I wake up...” That’s so crazy—because YESTERDAY I had another one of those. I just remembered. What’s so weird about them is how there’s always this sense of resignation! This wan helplessness, this oh well, can’t do anything about it so might as well start swallowing it up and getting along with it again.... Dude. WTF. (2016)