the hardest part of this job is i don’t know very much about it, while somehow i’ve managed to convince myself and/or let myself be convinced that i’m supposed to at least appear as if i do. on the other hand, that’s kind of the best thing about it, too--i fully accept that i’m a novice, i wouldn’t wish to be so grandiose as to say a blank slate, but at least i’m someone clueless enough--when i get honest for whatever chemical, personal, or coincidental reason--to still sometimes, occasionally, accidentally, serendipitously, “Speak what [I] think to-day in words as hard as cannon balls, and to-morrow speak what to-morrow thinks in hard words again, though it contradict everything [I] said to-day.” (2017)