remembering more dreams dreamed of lover (in artistic black and white) dreamed of walls being down between my neighbors and me; laughing dreamed of having the lens I want--the autofocus was just fine neocortex is hungry; want to read fascinating things emotions are braver (asked Peggy how *she* was felt great outpouring of love response to anger or irritation slowed down, even when it comes I'm a little more able *and willing* to reign it in and let it go seems more natural to just be patient and nice with the girls I actually invited Celi to come up on my lap to work on reading, instead of being reluctant to and annoyed more able to say "it can wait" to actions that would interrupt the action I was intending to attend to now if only I can stop itching and racing and get some sleep