080114 nancy & bailey on their way; $300 left after rent and way more than $300 worth of bills coming up; one month late on rent already; ernie said just let me know, don't leave me hangin, which is totally cool but still; self esteem; i am fully capable of doing work that would pay a living income; got to get through the whatever it is; got to get help from the right kind of places & sources; got to break out of the inside of my little head