102713 #human The soccer game -- yelling -- beyond "into it" -- we need this -- the scraps of men, mean threadbare -- that's why this is important -- we're fighting over the little bits of life that are left us -- to break these rules or threaten these boundaries incurs our deepest passions -- the kids bear this burden for us because they are young -- "that's their fault" 101713 #human #meerkat The (A) in the Spiral calendar is a somewhat but not completely arbitrary chunk-tweak, a deliberate cutting up and moving around of a subroutine, that may well produce interesting results in itself, but, perhaps more importantly, serves as practice--a building up of the awareness muscle that peels back the hypnotized outer layers of my consciousness and reveals the games I play with myself all the time. It is simply another wild hack at the strangely-grown-closed-source API's of my mind. Plus, it's sexy as hell. Enjoy!! 101413 #human There is pleasure in being surrounded by humans in various states of conscious, voluntary vulnerability. Coming here (turtle place) is about the closest thing I have to lovemaking right now. Trust issues? Ok, ok. 100713 #human Poverty is another form of loneliness, and money is tobacco. 102513 #human Is government anything other than a [complex] manifestation of [herd] instinct? 100913 #human Yes it is possible to be hung over from eating. 100413 #human Feeling far and moodily, hafta poop, butt problems, sniffly, back weak at the moment, defenses ramping up assuming men at the school don't like me and even some of the women, I just I just need to take some time. Even on a five-word day, sit with it. Try something besides shoving food in at night. And... 102513 #human Within the realm of rock-bottom resides the sweetest high; *this* is what you actually have to recover from, and you will never, quite, not completely. #abuse 100413 #human recognize the different kinds of chaos & noise; a lot of kinds are actually okay. They're playing. They're having fun. Don't be scared. 101413 #human The kid in me mistrusts adults' self conscious niceness, probably because it doesn't seem as though it's genuinely directed at me or for me. It's a show for someone else, possibly primarily for the adult who's exhibiting it. 103013 #human It's not quite hopelessness, but in the morning with a pounding head and stuffy nose and pulled hamstrings, it sure as hell can feel like it, crouched down in the shower with no future and precious little respect. Is it worth it? Pursuing your art? Are you? If you're going to get old, uncomfortable, sick, bent, and probably killed in the revolution, you might as well make it worth it. 100913 #human Especially around so-called political issues, people often conflate, say for instance, "bills" with "hurricanes". Human constructs with natural forces. The knee-jerk argument against the affordable care act that goes, "Why should I pay your bills?" might be rephrased as "Why should I behave cooperatively?" or even "Why should I care about you?" Why not just come right out and say it? Why act as if "bills", and your luck in being able to pay them, are a manifestation of some kind of fundamental natural order? Leaving aside the gross hypocrisy in the question, what's the deeper question that it avoids?