011811 I actually did myself a favor, putting the big stinking turd in the otherwise (mostly) lovely book: it is a deterrent to frivolous sharing. 012111 Your head's full because you keep it full. 012511 Retribution is inevitable. 021511 I just looked over at Jimmy and thought, Dude, you really don't need the jogger to jog those. And then it hit me--the great, silently gasping hunger for things you can measure with your eye, appraise wih your hand. Earthly things. Things of the thrust and the rut. The things our metaphors strain toward. Even the disposable--before the disposable was ubiquitous. This is why I still want sometimes to smoke. 021811 I can't think seriously about anything except pussy licking right now. Even though so much is going on in the world. And the circular motion of music in the head the eraser motion of tight small circles getting looser as the night goes on the music goes on the drinks go on circular motion circular motion fuck me please And as the man said, "blah blah blah blah blah blah blah, blah blah blah blah blah...." In the days gone by.... Drinkin that wine.... getting high, in the days gone by, drinkin that wine.... every little paycheck every little breath god i want to smoke so bad a picture of clint eastwood on the internet with a cigar clenched in his teeth takes me back to lincoln ave and switch and the mexican restaurants and the bus stop and and and and