September 4, 2008 Now a little bit of marijuana, on the other hand, just brings out the heavenly drone of the earth. Ahhhhh. Easy does it. I’m not used to being a professional. Don’t they get it? Shouldn’t they therefore be nicer to me? The trick to a good interview for an inexperienced professional is: use your questions to them wisely. Sure, interviews are good practice for interviews. But if they can be a source of vital information, so much the better. As soon as that guy explained to me how to work through the catch-22 of experience, I knew there was no way in hell he was going to hire me. But at the same time, my approach to advancing my career underwent a revolution. --- Everybody wants to court the poor, or at least not to overtly attack them, because there are so damn many of them, and, at least for now, they can still vote. So if they can’t court them with actual policies, or, god forbid, a share of the money or technology or health care, then they court them with religion or fear or reality tv. --- September 8, 2008 I don’t really want to be a teacher. At least, not like this.... Can’t give up yet, though. I need to have real conversations. Not flinch away from the leering spittle of youth. I’m just so tired of feeling guilty. September 10, 2008 To recognize as valid something inarticulate: that is the function of poetry. Remember when the cursor got all slanty when you switched to italic? The hall is basically the naughty step for pre-teens. September 17, 2008 You wanna know what I think is iconoclastic? Enjoying life anyway. September 21, 2008 Reading DFW, conscious that I’m time travelling back to the mind of someone who hasn’t killed himself yet but will. Impossible not to look for messages, but knowing, recognizing, that it’s not that simple.