The question is not so much, "Why does she collect so much junk (like the giant inflatable gumball machine I saw this morning on my way to work on the side of the road--and saw again this evening after work, crumpled up in front of our garage!)," but, "Why do I care?" I criticize relatives and neighbors for being so concerned about appearances, and celebrate characters like the old lady in Road to Mecca with her crazy sculptures that got her neighbors so up-in-arms. What if I'm married to a modern, slightly lost, slightly beat-up, suburban ----- who makes her weird-beautiful road to Mecca in our own front yard, and back yard, and garage, and--and I fail to see it, to see the crazy blooms of her sideways anti-modern flower garden growing for me and her and our little girls--what treasure did you bring home today? says the little kid in me, the little co-conspirator to the odd girl I actually married, while the grown-up work-crazed me sits and smokes and scowls.... 080406 how monkeys' faces change: a part-time seminar on personal narrative meteorologywhy dragonslayers will always find work: level playing fields don't stay level for longi want a man so bad right now. like a sexy nigerian. or freddy. I got to start being nicer to my wife. Offer her the window seat. Cuz she's sweet like Drew Barrymore, even if she doesn't look _exactly_ like her. 080806 the leaders must outthink the marauders must outthink the leaders must outthink the marauders . . . . We live in a highly paradoxical age. 081206 oh dear and mighty fish, obeloved esriel,oh why am i afraid of you? the reason the woman is such an essential part of every picture is i want the man & i love the woman. it really is both. it really is. (really.) i love her so much i want to be her. but not in some hacked-together, frankenstein way. in more of a torture way. like, licking his cum off his taut dark nipple while his perfect muscles quiver, after he's just made actual love to my wife and left her raw wide open and thrillingly satiated. it annoys her when i try to tickle her. i'm such a little boy. the problem with kate was, she tried to give me exactly what i wanted. yep. it's time to have a waking life. 08.17.06 You ass potato. Yep. Yep, yep, yep. I’m so afraid I fucked up student teaching with the stupid fucking online procrastination, I can hardly even think, let alone stand myself. Yep. 081806 IS it possible to get addicted to quitting smoking? I’m at hour 60 now, and once again, it’s kind of a rush. Feeling it all rush out of me, out of my pores, down through my anus, out of my racing thoughts! In any case, I can still feel the life-force winds coming in my open brow.... I still got some jizz in me yet. It’s still summer but I can already taste the massive, spurting cock of Fall! 082106 Got to email Christy & Roz today! oh wow oh wow oh wow oh wow oh wow ohowowowowowow!!!!!!!!