Glenn sez you learn (in public schools) how 2 be invisible until one day you either disappear altogether or else start 2 come back stay at Rock Bottom or climb out we take acid ostensibly to share but i hope i don't miss what we share because I'm on acid Amen. if you don't divulge @ the moment it occurs to you to divulge, you may not get another chance. They might not still be waiting for you to take the stage clear yr throat ahem ahem It's all gonna fade enjoy it now ? But isn't that what you always do? (a refrain) [on a Camel napkin:] this is it. this is all you get. listen & see love in their eyes the question is who is still going to be here when it wears off huh who? who? who? who? MOVIE POPCORN IS SALVATION It's not that we don't believe it it's that we believe it ALL but the net effect is (so what) flat grey (white noise) show ?? if not having enuf alcohol is the biggest prob. then we're fuckin FINE. and what, after all the expect ations, did we choose to do? Sit in a bar play pinball listen 2 music drive around go back to glenn's listen 2 music burn candles talk drink 4th stage widening circles my feet entwined with Glenn's legs AnnMarie talking (aka Tiger Lily) "I never dated a toothless boy" it all started in 7th No-- when Matt Merrimann said Jenny made a sex joke-- and she wasn't pure any more-- that's when the down hill started I am an old jaded queen all words kin do is LEAK LIKE A SIEVE. just looking for what really turns me on any more and I I I don't know stoned plus that's all it is. U can go fast faster faster faster but after that it's redundant. Precious Little Happiness a play in ??? parts by Someone named someone I forgot Whatever dude. 5th Stage a piece of popcorn pops off my head no--a whole Handful of popcorn careens off my head followed by magic disks from the phbbbrrrrt gun-- and--what was I going to say? that I was lonely? and AnnMarie finally pops one piece rite into my mouth (and I still want to smoke pot but then again I don't) of all, the 5th stage is the best. Cuz it involves singin w/ your friends. inherent in the pleasure is the fall when did it happen for you? are you old? tired? young? what? ever get the urge to burn yrself? 2nd 2nd 2nd 2nd 2nd 2nd Childhood even Pan gets old Glenn: "sorta sorry I didn't see any new colours today." but he's still pan (and that's the funny part) w/out the campfire the song is Nothing (words are little postage stamps) 6th Stage physical weirdness ann talking about her dog her friend "no one will like me like he will like me" still prisoners of tomorrow dogs don't age the needle machine in g'ma Stone's basement-- please remember it write it down when yr "sober" since leaving <<home>> <<hi school>> <<college>> <<whatever>> I feel bereft of my mask my ID my who I am suppos't to be final stage: take care of the dogs LISTEN too meeeeeeeeeeeee eighth stage "dude I love you like a brother" <<silence>> is good is is is is good thing is is where others go because they are beaten you fear to go voluntarily there comes a time you can uh.. . .... and then there comes a time you can't uh oh ah (watching her) I found it god bless the freaks glenn: "It's still kinda like Pee Wee's playhouse in here. <<a pause>> "Is that normal?" how many other men besides me and Glenn got to see Ann get the sore cheeks disease (from smiling too much) tonight? [in a more girlish hand: 1 262 895-6241 ANh] final stage take care of the dogs I come home, the phone tone is phlatliners, ---But I got Ann's phone # and a sad-awake beautiful Taelin-like Christ-like Glenn on his couch back @ his apt, and 2 dogs here waiting patiently for me to take them out * I am one half all the love & warmth I get from Dogs & Glenn & Ann & Katy & some times all the others and one half the fear guilt lust rage impotence death threat of that guy on the beach who might or might not have said "then why'd you bring her to the beach?" when I said "thanks. the white one's not mine; she gets in fights" (and apologized to Sheba for saying it) after he reigned in his dog who had been loose.