on the whole, drinking is better for writing than smoking but obviously it has its drawbacks as well duh “drugs” is triggered by aversion to the perceived need to choose between boredom and focused expenditure of energy It’s a failure to recognize a middle ground or third choice. wide eyed bright eyed open eyed blind sometimes accumulated wisdom hides a little bit of cluelessness from beast mode to feast mode however you wish to frame it, it’s known to be harder to do maintenance after the one-year point. It’s not just you. Beast mode to feast mode is kind of another way of saying “make up your mind about what you’re going to fail at” instead of just sliding into the path of least resistance, again, despite your useless but misery-making self-reproachments. the world of the question: inverted snowglobe a powerful question warps the other questions around it (spacetime) if somebody strong needed you you’d have to become strong yourself “drugs” says hurry up, we gotta get this now, hurry up and be creative, we don’t have the discipliine to come back here later, we don’t have the memory; “alt” says relax, you have time, whatever “creativity” is, you have it already, always have, hey, now that you’re not on drugs all the time you might actually find the self-discipline to come back to whatever the thing is you were feeling or working on. Water comes into the deep pool from upstream and it flows out downstream, all the time, except if it’s too dry, and then you do something else dry while you wait for it to be wet again