080719 even drinking a bottle and a half of wine and watching *Booksmart* at 1 am can be medicine, if you don’t overdo it. Woke up feeling miserable, the expected side effects of course and a reminder of why you don’t overdo it, but also weirdly relaxed, refreshed, and more inclined to be consciously kind to millie. 082419 Rochambo Americano tastes better than their shit-for-boiled-hot-dogs regular coffee, and I am having one while sitting here with a “vintage” Mac Tibook from 2002, unable to connect to WiFi, either because the Airport card doesn’t actually work, or else because it’s too old to connect to whatever protocol everyone uses these days, which just goes to show you something, but I’m not sure what exactly. - is it safe to save files to the Desktop in OS 9? - is there a control panel out there somewhere to disable the Caps Lock key? One thing that’s weird is that this keyboard is so superior to the one on the $3000 2018 MacBook Pro that it’s not even funny. Monaco 14 with smoothing on actually doesn’t look that bad. You save the file, and about 20 seconds later the icon appears on the Desktop. Heheh. - is there a control panel out there to get two-finger gestures for the trackpad? (probably not.) I wonder if the text encoding of files I make with this BBEdit Lite will be all fucked up. I don’t see a way to change it to Unicode... so it’s going to be “Mac Western Roman” or whatever the fuck it’s called, and iOS won’t even be able to recognize it, haha. Whatever. Who the fuck cares, if I just copy and paste characters into a different file or some shit. I don’t know, it truly doesn’t matter, just like all of this. There is an actual pain that comes up when I think about how pathetic all this is, so I guess I’ll do what my boss’s boss said and just get into tortoise mode, and have some faith that sitting here like a slack-jawed hunchback isn’t a crime against God. People need stories, more than they need salt. If you don’t have any stories, you’re about as useless as the sucked-out corpse of a red-shirted Star Trek guy after that salt-sucking-lady-monster got done with them. What to do, what to do. Go out and be among people and get off the phone and get off WiFi and get out in the street until you can’t do that anymore, and then have the decency to die fast, like a cat. There’s no need to talk about how all the limitations and deficiencies and lack of options and the ugliness of this computer are an advantage, because that’s so obvious it’s boring. Hey--maybe after all it won’t have been a 100% complete waste of money! Remains to be seen. Enough words about that. (64, to be exact, including this parenthetical.) I have to say, I really like Monaco’s parenthesis, quote marks, semicolons, and commas. The exclamation mark is anemic! And the question mark? Kind of retarded. taotrtps is the password for file sharing because it can only be 8 characters long haha.