The body or the girl The words or the meaning Literature is Legos I constructed this whole dependency scheme, trying to imagine this boy, this 18-year-old, heartbroken, utterly free in a foreign country and a big city, where he does speak the language and can pretty much go anywhere and do anything except legally drink and do drugs, and I mostly imagined him having trouble with the lack of drinking and drugs. That dependency hijacked my ability to remember or imagine what it was like to be young heartbroken and free and all by yourself