## drinkers remorse 042718 042718 drinkers remorse feeling like I literally never learn anything feeling as pathetic as the neighbor kids’ Grandpa like a big gross old grown up baby just stuffing my face and wasting time taking up space 1 bottle equals singing badly at 1130 till Millie asks me to stop undecipherable text to Anne about the past good conversation with Megan and Millie but then again was it? slightly weird text to soccer people about Libby quitting (alongside a nagging feeling that i “helped” her decide too much) feeling like shit at 5:30 looking back at yesterday's speeding ticket (before the bottle; I'm not that big a fuck up), 35$ lunch (though it was nice to have that with Millie but I can't afford it especially if you include the fucking speeding ticket for fucks sake) and lack of getting much work done. worry about the future of my jobs/income makes me procrastinate which makes me worry more. I’d just quit drinking again altogether except that I just really like it sometimes. except then I don't and I don't like being fat and pasty either. dreamed I was sitting next to Megan at school and she kept obliviously saying all these super rude things to people and not seeing or if she did see understanding why they were offended.