071017 # 1c a day - run/walk/bike/swim - strengthen/resist/balance/randomize - read/write - school work[^1] - say yes ## what tries to stop me 1. fear of being seen (aka embarrassment) 2. not knowing exactly what to do first (aka the unexpected (cf. p. 267 *Born to Run)* ## question What are you spending your time on right now? *You have to pay the energy bill, no matter what the project is.* ## bucket list - be in (or bonus: form) a secret society right under the nose of professional respectability - push back the bounds of frailty and decrepitude as long as possible - fully understand what divination is - know/release/encourage/nurture/explore teh-dsa/npydyuan ## order of operations 1. easy 2. light 3. smooth 4. fast ## another way of looking at it - Fast. - Take long walks. - Meditate. - Journal. - Quit the news. [^1]: The only way this is going to work is if you have set work hours. 2017-07-21 what I’m worried about - prostate. basically dependent on flomax. ok. What’s next? - want to camp with the girls but how will i ever get to sleep? Will it be awkward all of us in a tent? - can’t offer lib & cel their own rooms - job insecurity - retirement - wow when i get sore now i *really* get sore! - what if i depend on a certain app and then it disappears? - why can’t my older kids be more quiet upstairs? - that woman on that podcast who said she was a failure & so the guy had to say it back to her and it was awful but real and the audience thought and felt something but they didn’t just think "howd he do that" like is usual for a magic show--well actually im not as worried about her. i kind of love her. - still haven’t given up on "writing" something real but oh my god. where to begin. said to self on the way to and at drumming last night: first you just have to tell a good story. then if there’s some kind of universal truth or whatever that happens, fine, but you can’t start with that. same goes for sounding smart or skilled.